On February 14, 1988, I was born into this world. I am the first born in our family. Consequently, I am the first granddaughter, first niece, first in everything. Naturally, I became everyone’s favorite and center of attention. I was always on the limelight, but not for long. I had a baby brother when I was two. And according to my parents’ accounts (since I can’t remember everything that has happened when I was still very young as a proof to Freud’s theory of childhood amnesia), I was so jealous of the new baby that the moment they went home from the hospital with my newborn brother, I threw a tantrum telling them to bring back the baby to the hospital or else I won’t let them in. I was two years and seven months old then and a selfish little brat at that. Now that I think about it, could this experience brought about my craving for always being the center of attention? I have this theory in mind that since I did not linger long enough in the limelight of my parents and relatives, this could be why I have always craved for attention and affection (being the leader in numerous school organizations, lead actor in lays, winning contests and quiz bees, falling for the next guy who is in close proximity and gives me the attention that I need, etc.). I think this theory of mine explains a little part of who I am today which means that Freud was really conveying some substance to his readers and followers when he said that our present problems and complexities can be traced back to our childhood traumatic experiences.
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